I kind of feel like when Elisabetta was born, I felt just like a mom does, when she goes from one to two kids. Anthony is so far apart in age, I didn’t feel that crazy and holy crap hard, when I had Rocco.
It is HARD when you have two littles, no joke. Especially when you have a child with special needs, who really needs so much attention and is super sensitive to baby cries.
Guys, wine and coffee have been my survival.
I have been in survival mode with Elisabetta’s CPAM since it was discovered last July. Just praying hard every week, being scared, and more. Especially as we got into the new year, her being sick, and then having to keep her sick free 6 weeks prior to surgery. Serious survival mode, now I do feel like I can breathe. Phew!
But, dealign with that and then Rocco not adjusting good to her was CRAZY. Any sibling has a hard time adjusting to a new brother/sister, but it was CRAZY level here. Rocco’s biggest trigger is a kid/baby crying, weeeee!
Things are still hard with that, wanted to update you guys. He really struggles the most when he is over tired, tired, or just wakes up in the morning. That is when he completely loses it if she cries or now if she even makes noises. She is getting so vocal now, and he hates it. LOL. Help!
Seriously, anyone that wants to come over, I will have a bottle of wine at the door, you have to take a big chug out of, before you come in. Haha. Sad part, I am not kidding!
One day it will get easier, one day in a lad far far away. I just have to laugh, as I embrace it and just be the best mama to them I can be. Soon Rocco will be back to outpatient therapy, so that will be good for him and give him break from his sister.
He does like to steal her toys, he will go near her, but that’s about it! We all tried to go on the deck yesterday and blow bubbles, he didn’t want Elisabetta and I out there, so we went in. It made me sad, but I just have to remind myself that things will get better one day <3
And Elisabetta, little miss is on team NO SLEEP the last week and a half. Literally, the girl will not even nap. She napped a total of a half hour yesterday. She is waking three times a night, growth spurt or sleep regression is going on. She is happy as can be, just not sleeping! I tried to do a dream feed, didn’t work! I am sure soon this will pass, but I have been insane! No sleep makes you irritable, bitchy, and cray!
Mike might run away somewhere until this is over! I might run away, LOL!
I never eat in peace, but now I really don’t. I used to eat breakfast in peace in the morning, now she is up! Miss up early and no back to sleep like she used to!
Just funny how I literally haven’t slept before her surgery, as I was always just worried about her, and now surgery is over, and she comes home and will not sleep! I thought the first days were due to surgery, but that is not it. I mean it might of been a combo first days, now though it is pure sleep regression and a mental leap I think! Just bad timing, ha! I just want sleep, was so relieved surgery behind us and I could sleep better.
Oh sweet E, I know you will sleep more again!
She is doing AMAZING, I wanted you all to know! Incisions healing beautiful, she is in no pain, and she is drinking SO much! She had issues drinking due to her mass, most she would take was 2.5 ounces. She is up to 4 now! I am so happy! Poor little girl struggled so much with that, with her mass. The surgeon said her lung would literally collapse and open again when she was breathing. So, that is why she did struggle! So happy it’s gone!
She is also breathing better, too! She should have no restrictions in life with only half a left lung! She is a rockstar! We go back for a check up next month, will keep you all posted!
Really, life is crazy over here, but I feel SO blessed in lots of ways. Surgery day really opened my eyes, made me appreciate life SO much more than I ever have, and this whole journey with her lung condition has. God does all for a reason for sure, I know this.
It really is a crazy life with kids, blessed life though. I go back and forth on having one more, because I truly LOVE being a mom. I feel like I should be done, that was always though due to Rocco not adjusting well with his sister. It wasn’t because I was really done. It really is hard, as I think God is telling me one more, so that we have three close in age. But, who knows. God knows, so if it happens it will. We are being safe, but maybe we will decide not to be and try for one more.
I mean, why not just make my life more crazy, RIGHT?! But I am grateful I can be a mom, and I love my three kids more than life, I would be lost without them,
The sleep regression does have me second guessing, haha!
But gosh we do make some cute kids and we are great parents <3
Hope everyone has a great day! Rocco has therapy and we are going to chill! I am hoping to get a nap in, if Elisabetta allows. We will see, I doubt it! Lots of coffee! I think I may even pack the kids up and go to Starbucks for an americano this morning!
See you tomorrow!
- How did you know you were done having kids?
- If you have more than one child, was going from one to two hard for you?
( please know, I am grateful to be a mom and to get pregnant, and I send love and prayers to those who do struggle. I never take being a mom for granted <3 )